♥ I DEDICATE THIS POST SPECIALL TO MY UMIE LISA BTE UBUD & TOMINIM JOUMIN AND TO ALL MOM IN THIS WORLD♥

At 3 years "MOMMY I LOVE U". At 10 years "MOM WHATEVER". At 16 years "MY MOM IS SO ANNOYING". At 18 years "IM LEAVING THIS HOUSE". At 25 years "MOM U WERE RIGHT". At 30 years "I WANT TO GO HOME TO MOM'S HOUSE". At 50 years "I DONT WANT TO LOSE MY MOM". At 70 years "I WOULD GIVE UP EVERYTHING TO HAVE MY MOM HERE WITH ME".  Happy Mother's Day ♥

THE ONE WHO RAISE ME UP

♥ LISA UBUD ♥

♥ BACKBONE OF THE FAMILY, WOMEN WHO STAND NEXT TO ME ♥

♥ TOMINIM JOUMIN ♥

♥ I wanna wish both of u HAPPY MOTHERS DAY ♥

♥ UR KINDNESS CANNOT BE REPAY BY ANYTHING ♥

♥ DEAR UMIE, AT HIS MOTHERS DAY I WANNA WISH U HAPPY MOTHERS DAY AND I'M SO THANKFUL HAD U IN MY LIFE. I WANT TO SAY SORRY BCZ  BEING TOO STUBBORN ALL THIS WHILE. i KNOW IT'S NOT EASY FOR YOU TO RAISE 3 CHILD ALONE WITHOUT A HUSBAND STAND BY UR SIDE. U STAY STRONG AND KEEP MOVE ON SINCE MORE THAN 10 YEARS AGO.I ALWAYS PRAY THE BEST FOR YOU MOM, ALWAYS AND FOREVER.THANK YOU FOR BEING BESIDES ME EVERYTIME I NEED YOU. I LOVE YOU ♥

♥ DEAR NENEK, I LOVE YOU ! THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING UMIE AND US ALL THESE WHILE. IT'S BEEN A TIRING YEARS FOR YOU, TO RAISE US UP. ^^ WITH LOVE~ KAKAK, ADIK, AND SHAMIN ♥

Who fed me from her gentle breast
And hushed me in her arms to rest,
And on my cheek sweet kisses prest?
My Mother.

Who ran to help me when I fell,
And would some pretty story tell,
Or kiss the place to make it well?
My mother.

On Mother's Day I have written a poem for you.  In the interest of poetic economy and truth, I have succeeded in concentrating my deepest feelings and beliefs into two perfectly crafted lines:  You're my mother, I would have no other!

A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.

STRONG WOMEN !

♥ LOVE ♥

This Song were created by a friend of mine, As Bow. -->  Hey Bro, best of luck to on ur career. Well, i like ur song. Meaningful. aww! Hoping lots a new song from u! Peeps. This is a local song, more to sabahan style and simple words. In add, As Bow is Sabahan yaw. Proud of him. 

First time i heard this song, It was like my mind focus on one thing [LOVE]. Refreshing me bout my love before. Lol! Stupid! Tiada hasil ! But atleast i learn something from the relationship. Do not fall in Love easilly!  Altghough we cannot control about heart feeling yeah. Klu suka diam2 sejja la. ha ha!

It's hard to find true love nowdays, apa lagi maw jumpa guys or girls yg can be trusted. Ceii.. Matai na ko jo! Silap2 kena tipu hidup2. hoho! Being a fool. So, pandai2 laa. Mulut mimang manis cakap about itu ini, tapi it's all about shit. 

Naa, if jumpa mcm yg d lagu neh mention. Means yg dia btl2 Love and care about u, hargai laa. Tp kan susa laa orang sekarang neh. Mula2 maw tackle bukan main lagi, caring gila. Tapi bila sda lama2, naa kotoh! Mcm  nothing. Didn't care at all, peduli la ko sna. hahhaa! Jangan terasa r, it's true maa. 

If me pn, I also hoping for a guy yang Love me, care for me and always be there for me. Bukan la maw sama2 seja 24jam, bt atleast give me some support. Honestly, I've hurt before, taikk kn. Sakit ati neh. But dari sana jera. I'm not going to accept any guys mcm bgtu seja. Honestly ! Paduli la kaya ka, hndsme ka. Do I care? Sengsara baituu sakit ati. Sendiri jg tanggung kan? Sepa ada tyme tu? No body yaww! Naa. baik jgn ambil risiko. 

Just hoping my true love come one fine day, the one who can open my heart. :)

Insyallah.... Amin.

He'll be me LOVE

My ANCHOR

MISTAKES

Urghh.. Mistakes. It's useless to loving u all this tyme. Wasting tyme waiting for u. 

Big mistakes. The worse part is, the way i see u was so wrong. I should realise it since the day u walkaway from me. Missing u, n wishing u would come back to me, useless ! My thoughts before makes my mind fussy cz it's clashed with the reallity.

It has been a long time didn't feel this way. 

[ E M P T Y ]

Felt like something has been ripped from me. Bt i'm glad i knew the truth, atlast. It's just i can't get any answer from u. Plus, i don't want to. Perhaps u got ur own reasons. 

Sorry to say, bt all the things, memories, thoughts that i kept before i already left it behind. I'm not going to turn back and grab it anymore. I'm ready to struggle on my own. No more words n hope for u. Yess, i'm still shock bt i'm thankful for the truth. Atleast i can open my mind and eyes. 

Furthermore, i still got certain people who stand besides me and help me to stand once again if i fall. Thanx to all of u. XOXO

WANTED PEEPS !

My goshhh ! I REALLY2 MISS THESE PEOPLE DAMN MUCH !
I miss every moment with them, chatting in the class, laughing until caught lecturer's attention. Muahaha We spent most of the tyme in weekdays togather. Lunch at the stall, watch at the student passing by. If got something wrong, nah ! Gossip start! awww! Flashback memories. :)

Fyi, I am really glad i got u all as a friend. I'm lucky to know u guys. I just hope that our friendship will not buried although we'll seperate n go with our own future. After all the thing that we've been through it's impossible for me to forget Melissa, Daphne, Dedey & Ucop.

♥THATS US♥

♥DAPH♥

   ♥MEL♥

 ♥UCOP♥

♥MEL, UCOP & ME♥

 ♥DEDEY♥

♥DAPH & MEL♥

This is for u guys --->

♥ENDLESS FRIENDSHIP♥

BACKSTABBER!

Hate the words also the people ! Mostly orang yang buat perangai neh is among our friends. And thats suxxx man ! Mmg orang tu pentingkan diri sendiri pastu x ingat diri kali. Banyak laa bnda macam nehh jadi surrounding me.

FRIENDS ---> sepatutnya love each other, tlg antra satu sma lain n mcm2 lg la yg ptt d buat. Hubungan tu kna la jaga kn? Nowdays, pa yang dapat saya tgk is kawan sndiri makan kawan. Contohnya:

*Gara2 maw lebih popular, lebih hebat la konon n maw suma orang kenal sanggup buruk2 kn kawan sendiri dgn orang lain. Bukan alang2 lg tuu cerita dia, samapai melibatkan maruah kawannya. Aduiii... Naa.. Kawanya pn pa lg, 2x5 ja prangai. Bwa ceta yang sama jg psl kawan dia tu. Last2 dari tinggal serumah, brpisah tinggal lain2 tmpat. X bertegur n ikut haluan masing2.

*Neh kes suka enjoy, kaki jalan n kuar wif others. Well, teenagers mmg la suka enjoy, buat pa yang dorang suka ja. I cannot deny it, there's no doubt. Cz i'm a teen too. BUT ! Ada cara dia. Depands la maw enjoy mcmna. U still got ur limit darl~ Kalau maw kuar enjoy pleaseeeeee la tell somebody in ur family, atleast dorg taw. And be honest ! Neh x.. Ada yang kuar curi2. Pastu bila kena call off fon. That makes people worried bout them. The worst part is even dorang bgtaw bt MENIPU ! urghh.. sgt 2 x bgs taw. Kuar dgn orang ntah sepa x taw kemana, lepastu bgtau family n guna nama kawan. Tup Tap Tup Tap ! Kawan yang kena sound oleh family. My goshhh , thats sux ! P club, kawan yang kena tuduh ajar that person. Kena marah lg. Yang c kawan neh blur cz x taw pa2. Its BAD ! FREAKIN BAD !

*Had a crush with friend's boyfie. Naa paling kick neh ! hoho! Soal hati tuu mmg la susa maw predict kn. But elakkan lah crush dgn boyfriend kawan. Friendship tuu kna laa jaga ryte. Ada pula yang maw kasi buruk kawan dengan boyfriend kawan dia tuu. Aduii.. thats not the way ok. Cara macam tuu xkan dapat buat lelaki tuu suka dgn kamu. Buruk perangai bila pandai curi2 contact dengan boyfie kawan tuu. Mengayat laa kunu~ Duhh... Fikir la pa perasaan kawan tuu. N try to put ur self in ur friends shoes ! Please!

Naa.. neh top cases laa.. others not sure.. Hihi... I hope i wouldn't meet these kinda peeps. Cz sgt2 laa menyakitkan hatii taw. BAHAYA ! ha ha ha!

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♥SAD♥

Yesterday i went to kenduri. I didn't likee to go there bt i hv to bcause of something that i cannot avoid. Kita tidak boleh nilai org tu ndr luaran, latar belakang ataupun keadaan sekelilingnya. Benda yang sebaliknya mungkin jadi jg, possiblity tuu mmg bnyk.

For example, there's a family who has a background very severe. Kaki gaduh, alcoholic, drugs, womenizer, gambling and everything [package]. Most of the family members mcmtuu moreover parents dorg yang terlalu manjakan anak2 sampai tidak ambil kisah dengan perlakuan buruk anak2. Dr kecil smpai laa anak2 dorg tu kahwin n also ada anak masing2..

Days by days passing by, tp perangai tu masi trbawa2. Plus makin menjadi2 bila ada anak and isteri. Bila brjudi, mesti mabuk. Bila habis duit, balik umah mengamuk. Minta duit dgn wife, bila x dibagi sepak terajang si isteri dapat. Anak2 membesar dengan persekitaran yang kasar dan buruk. Siapa yang senang dengan keadaan macam tu? Atau paling tepat siapa yang tahan bila kna buat macam binatang? Sedangkan bintang lg ada hati prasaan.

Kahwin cerai macam game, Ppuan silih berganti mcam baju. Hutang keliling pinggang, beban tu dibagi dengan si isteri yang langsung x tahu pn apa hasilnya duit2 tu semua. Apakan daya, si isteri cuma mampu tawakal.

Bila anak2 suda meningkat dewasa, kenangan pahit yang dulu tu pasti terbawa2 sampai bila2. Mcm fobia laa jg. And sometimes ada anak2 yang tidak akan mengaku bapa dorg, bercakap ataupun jalankan tanggungjawab sbg anak. Pengalaman pahit tu makin terbawa2 and buat hidup tertekan. Lumrah alam.. Dendam !

Hsil drpd beberapa perkahwinan, lahir anak2 yang tidak berdosa. Bila besar, masing2 tidak tahu adik-bradikny. Bila parents bercerai, anak2 jadi mangsa.kurang kasih syg. Hidup, makan pakai tidak menentu. Mama hilang entah ke mana. Bertahun2 tidak berhubung. Tinggal dengan bapa, tp bapa pn tidak brtanggungjwb. Tidak bekerja, x bg nafkah anak2.

Syukur seja anak yang sulung tahu berfikir. Alhamdulillah diadapat bersekolah. Di umur yang masi berada di sekolah rendah dia trpaksa buat kerja2 yang sepatutny seorang MAMA buat. KENAPA MAMAny TIDAK IKHTIAR AMVBIL ANAK2 DIA? X PERASAAN KA DENGAN ANAKNY TU? Anak yang rindu dengan kasih syg mama dibiarr bgtu seja. Cuci pakaian, masak, menyapu si anak trpaksa buat. Kadangkala makan cuma berlaukan nasi dan kicap. Dia yang menjaga adik2. BAPA DIA BUAT APA? MAKAN ? TIDUR?????????? MANA PERGI TANGGUNGJWB BAPA ???????

Saya terharu bila tgk budak tuu, dia beradap sopan. Even bila kenduri pn dia biarkan orang lain makan terlebih dlu. Sanggup makn kemudian. Hormat dgn orang lain. Huluran tangan untuk bersalam. Hati saya tersentuh dgn keadaan dia. Dari situ saya tau tidak semua yang buruk itu jahat. Kadang2 ada yang baik dalam buruk2 tu.

Saya cuma dapat doakan Allah S.W.T buka pintu mama dan bapa nya supaya bertanggung jawab dan jgn biarkan anak2 dia rasa tu semua. Dalam liungkungan umur mcmtu dia sepatutnya bermain dgn budak2 lain..